Another Dreamless Night, Almost A Dreamful Day

February 9th, 2007 by Sexy Mom · Viewed 1892 times · 11 Comments

Apropos to an earlier post, I meekly accept my failure. In as much as I wished before I slept, last night was another dreamless night. Nothing that I can recall of. Gosh, what face will I show Barbara and my classmates? What will I read aloud in class? Having failed miserably, I was debating what dream I would write about. Will I write about that blurry dream of an 8th child? the cosmetic surgery? Or will I write about a dream made out while awake? I realized that while dreams are free, we cannot just have them when we want them. They are not planned, they come in random.

I decided to write about a dream made while awake, comes free whenever and wherever we want to. This time, it will all be about material pleasures. Lucrative pleasures of money, money, money, which can buy endless shopping in New York, Paris, and wherever meets my fancy, travel to Holy Land, Disneyland, Hong Kong, maybe even in space, places of leisure and entertainment, concerts, plays, spa, liposuction, cosmetic surgery, rhinoplasty in Chicago, overseas calls, fine dining, chocolates galore (belgian, lindt, swiss and all), a palatial house, yes, fame.

But before that, I wanted to open my emails, Yahoo first, I told myself, Gmail later. What I saw made me lose all appetite to dream of a lucrative life. Just freshly reported as Yahoo’s headline, “Anna Nicole Smith Dies at 39″. I thought it was a hoax. Slowly, it sinked that the news was indeed true. It was like another Marilyn Monroe incident. I woke up Monica, who was fast asleep, perhaps dreaming (yes, I could have written about her dream), to break the shocking news. Monica and I have been following Anna Nicole’s life since after the tragic death in September of her son, Daniel, just a few days after the birth of her second child. Since my retirement, we have watched every interview on TV, videos on you tube, read tidbits on magazines and newspapers, and read blogs about her. We thought she was already recovering slowly, the void of a child lost at least filled with the birth of a new one.

Monica did not fault me for rousing her from deep slumber. She would have done the same, waking me up to break the shocking news, she said.

So sad, Anna Nicole was very very rich, but was she happy? I often asked myself. Today I again asked myself, was she happy? My answer was more on the NO than YES.

At least for today, I say goodbye to my dreams of a lucrative life.

Tags: Parenting and Family

11 responses so far ↓

Kyels // Feb 9, 2007 at 12:41 pm

It is so sad, isn’t it? To hear such terrible news … ):
Shari // Feb 9, 2007 at 2:10 pm

My mom texted the news, and I was surprised as just yesterday I was watching a news beat about her.

I’ve also followed her story. It’s such a terrible thing that’s happened. I hope her baby will be well-taken care of.
mr nice ash // Feb 9, 2007 at 9:59 pm

dreams are free. happiness is free.

but all i need now is money.
Leah // Feb 10, 2007 at 12:27 am

I should write my dreams too, I just dont remember them vividly enough to note it. They dont come often. And when they do, its quite a night and I feel tired during the day. A dreamless night is a good night sleep.

As for Anna Nicole…her death was forthcoming (i think drugs)..and yes SAD.
Belle // Feb 10, 2007 at 1:12 am

it was a tragic news. i didn’t expect her to die this young. now, i feel so sorry for her 5-month old baby who will grow not knowing her mother. sad!

now, we know that money can’t buy happiness. money is actually a root of all evil.
zeroimpact // Feb 10, 2007 at 1:48 am

Dreams are indeed a luxury that cannot be bought and it is something that is priceless

As for Anna, I still do not know who is she?
analyse // Feb 10, 2007 at 6:49 am

me thinks, a birth of a new baby will never replace another one. that’s really a sad story..
Prab // Feb 10, 2007 at 7:33 am

I guess the loss of her child was just too much for her to bear. Sad though that her life ended that way.
eric aka senor enrique // Feb 10, 2007 at 7:36 am

I’ve always wanted to take a creative writing class. Perhaps, when done with my photography workshops I’ll give it a go.

I like Anna Nicole and have always rooted for her. I was saddened to hear about her demise. But despite those setbacks, I’d like to think she had a good life. A fun one, too.
Shoshana // Feb 10, 2007 at 10:52 am

It’s so sad, especially about her daughter. So young without a mother.
Toe // Feb 10, 2007 at 1:40 pm

Sexy Mom, you remind me of this part in Harry Potter where he and Ron were asked to make divinations out of tea leaves. They couldn’t see anything so they just invented stuff and they got excellent marks. I’m sure you’ll do just great with writing about the Holy Land, Disneyland and whatever land you dream of going to.

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